Share your love.

So I guess it's about time i write something. I feel like writing, anyway. It's been about a year since i first came accross my favorite book and jumped into a world that I could never belong to. Nic Sheff's book, Tweak, is a beautifully written story about the tragedy that he forced his life to be. Recently, I bought the book for a freind of mine who really loved it as well. It turns out the paperback versions have an alternate ending, an afterword that was written long after the actual book was written. It also turns out that this "afterword' was the first entry to his blog, coincidently on blogspot as well. I began to read this blog of his, embracing myself in his world once again. I can honestly say that his writing engulfs my interest in a way that no writer has ever been able to achieve before. Although his issues are much more severe and significant, I feel like much of what he says I can relate. And in this way, I belong to his world.
I've realized I'm quite obsessive by nature. And maybe this is because I love so wholeheartedly. Once i love, that love cannot be removed from me. The love pixels are engraved into my one and only heart. After reading so continuously and detailed about drugs and the people who have suffered from the addictions, I've noticed that many of these drug addicts were genuine, good hearted people with initially good intentions. They became lost in their own insecurities, in their own fears about not being able to be loved. It's almost like those who love so genuinly are doing so in an attempt to be loved just as much as they love others. I truly believe that without love, a soul cannot flourish and fullfill its ultimate potential in the human world. We are dependent on the security and comfort that only love can give and so, we search. If we feel we lack love, then we need to fill the empty void with something. Be it sex, or drugs, or self mutilation-- it is just an attempt to feel that security that love provides. Love is the answer, love wholeheartedly. Love all.

It may help the world..
Just a little bit.
Just enough.